What a week? Let me start off by saying that I’m grateful for the strides that I’ve made since the beginning of 2026. My eating habits changed drastically and I’m loving it. Protein, protein, protein! I didn’t realize how important protein is to our diet. I’m looking forward to this Spring body. Okay, back to this week. I agreed to date a friend long distance against my better judgement. I was never at ease with putting the 25 year friendship at risk but this particular friend was very adamant stating that if it didn’t work out, things could practically go back to normal. Well, it’s only been a few weeks and things definitely didn’t work out. Not only was the dating experience a fail, our friendship dynamic will never be the same which made me question if our friendship was ever strong enough to handle something of this magnitude?
He and I never fought. We may have disagreed on some topics but voices were never raised and we could always circle back to neutral ground. Not this time. Our fight this week was filled with our characterizations of each other in a not so positive light and it felt horrible. The next day I had no desire to speak with him and I’m sure his feelings were mutual. I’m not sure at this point if I loss a friend or just someone who I’d known for a long period of time?
My present thoughts are that it was a reckless choice. If I didn’t have any peace about it, I should’ve simply said no. No doesn’t necessarily have to be permanent thing, it could simply mean no for right now. Because I didn’t stand my ground and trust what I was feeling, I’ve lost access to someone’s opinion that I held valuable and who I considered to be a special person in my life. Lesson learned.
Ironically, I prayed for clarity that day and actually asked God to give it to me within 24 hours. I received it in half that time.
This week has taught me there’s a time and place for everything. Trust His timing. Some times we can mess things up by moving way too fast. I know there are ways that I need to grow and in the midst of my transitioning, I moved too quickly. Patience is a virtue. Everyone may not understand where you are exactly in life, but you know so trust in your ability to make the best decision for yourself.
Here’s to a better next week. Thanks for reading.
